I Left Already
Selected Tweets by Pancho Espinosa

Edited by Theo Thimo & LK Shaw




On September 18th, writer and poet, Pancho Espinosa, left his home in Los Angeles to attend college in Santa Cruz. The following is a selection from his twitter account @BornToChill

- I left already

-Left LA behind this is insane this is the next thing I'm smiling. Life

-I am on my own now I can do whatever I want

-The tour person said living here is going to be like living at a music festival, nice

-So when do I start having sex w people

-Feels like I'm entitled to have sex w somebody like wtf

-Everybody is complaining abt their floor/roommate and mine are all awesome and down

-Everybody replies back quickly and they're down

-Met ~50 ppl today everybody's alive at the same time what are the odds

-P much played catch for two hours then soccer for two hours, there is literally a lot of people that like to do the same things I do great

-Have been referred to as 'such a guy' ~3 times by diff girls what can I say I like to play sports so sue me you know

-Am I a bro?

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-Something I said to a girl last night: "as much as it may seem like you get me right now you truly don't in the end" call me the alienator

-Having the view over the quad makes me feel like I'm an evil businessman

-There is literally endless fries and just food this is v dangerous v dangerous

-Who in their right mind thought it'd be beneficial to give me this much freedom

-Encourage me to not become obese plz help me

-If I become obese I ~will~ end m life

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-A girl called me "The Drunkest Girl at the Party" last night and I felt like it was accurate

-Everyone on this bus is young and drunk I'm going o a party and it's already a Party

-Have heard sentence "I think I met you last nite" more than ~36 times

-I recommend having sex w ppl you don't rlly wanna have sex w bc orgasm regardless

-Another bus full of drunk ppl another party

-I feel all the veins on my body

-All my veins are popping

-I'm in a meadow w like 200 other ppl ppl singing ppl smoking ppl drinking 666

-I've been having so much fun I had forgotten I came here for school idk how I'm going to be able to

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-Who am I rlly

-I feel like I don't care abt anything

-I want to be playing soccer or football

-I'm not bringing anyone back w me tonight

-Hmu if you wanna have sex w me p much

-Have been laying on the floor ~26 mins as people around me play guitar and hang out

-'Killed' a 28 oz jar of pb in 6 days. 25 servings per container, each serving 190 calories. 25 x 190= 4750 i'm abt to end my life

-I have a microwave but nothing to microwave

-One thing you can do to have sex w me is be a girl

-I'll act a way when I'm alonr and aa difg way when I'm trying 2 get.to have sex

-Sometimes when I'm having sex w a person I think "why" and "don't you know"

-This is fucke dup

-what do i do

-I NEED HELP

-The least you can do is touch my muscles and tell me I'm hot

-Been broing down hard

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-Classes start tomorrow we're going to make it a tradition to be hungover for first day of class

-I'm at a bar

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-Can't remember ~86% abt last night

-One thing I remember: a girl I met touched my body in a way that felt like 'testing the product'

-Seems like I drink excessively to not be conscious

-Walking around the dining hall thinking "I'm going to kill myself"

-I met these girls from stevenson they liked my body but that's it

-Had a dream that my mother called me fat

-What can a bro do

-I biked 16 miles to see you just kidding I biked 16 miles bc I hate myself

-My main motivation is self-hatred tbh

-We were all done w our food but since girls came and sat next to us we got more food

-Attractive people are (a) curse(d)

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-If there was a Venn diagram showing [people I feel interested in] and [people I want to do sex w] there would only be one circle reppn sex

-Coming back home alone doesn't feel good

-Feel at this moment like I can manage to give myself an orgasm via strategic clenching 'key' leg & abs muscles

-If you don't like me but still want to do sex w me I'm okay w that

-Feel like assigning 'drop in' hours when you can just come to my room and have sex w me

-My friend got laid last night so we started clapping and the whole dining hall joined in it was p memorable

-Read one of my poems to my roommate; he said "it's not Robert Frost but not bad"

-I'm locked out of my room and in my underwear

-Had beer instead of a protein shake after workout this is my life now

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-Nobody sits next to me ever in class

-"This seat is empty right?" Well, define "empty"

-Just had realization that girl I met today and had lunch with may have just wanted to have sex and not have lunch I was the one who s lunch

-'What can I say I'm a player'

-'I'm a player what can I say'

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-This is my life and it's only happening one time I'm going to do whatever I want

-Feel like I've somehow been tricked all my life til I got to this point where I finally realized I'm a bro

-Party music is dangerous bc I will start partying if

-I'm so excited for the game I can barely

-I guess I am a bro after all


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pancho espinosa lives in santa cruz

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