What name do I want to name my life?
It's almost January.
I go for a walk.
To look for evidence that things are getting better.
And I see it.
In the blackberries that line the path.
Remove the bitterness.
It's like summer in the city.
I read your poem on the lawn.
We lie down to avoid death/wind.
If you want to use the whole body.
Jump into the sea without fear.
Sleep: Stay in the air.
Inside, my flatmates are very happy.
I try to drown it out with disturbing pop music.
What do I need to summon you into my life.
I once loved a woman who loved me.
But look how it plays out.
I can use my whole body.
You send me a photo of yourself pointing at the moon.
With a big grin and I heart react it.
The sky is still smeared pink in the middle.
Stacey Teague wrote hoki mai (if a leaf falls press, 2020)